Thread: help needed :( please! so upset!

I'm just going to start by saying I know how awful I am and that i've been so wrong. I am almost 26 weeks and I have been smoking throughout my pregnancy I have cut down a bit but I am about 10 a day. And there have been quite a few times I have heavily heavily drank. I think this is due to my depression and being confused about the whole situation. I know it is no excuse and it is my own doing. I am terrified that I have hurt my baby. At my ultrasounds they have said my baby has a good palate and healthy kidneys. But I am so terrified of what I've done that I just think i've already messed it up and it makes me feel even more depressed and its like a vicious cycle. I do not drink every day but I have had quite of occasions where I have over done it. I don't know what to do. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed I really never want to hurt my baby, I think I was just being so destructive towards myself due to my partner leaving etc.
I would either drink wine or a few vodkas and the odd time i would go over board and drink a whole bottle of wine or half a bottle of vodka. If i was out i might have had a few cocktails.
I know I am selfish and ungrateful, just please I am not coming here to be judged I just want to know my baby will be okay I never want to touch another drink or cause her any harm.
willow xx :'(
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This things are really bad. You never have to do that. It not only you but your child too who is suffring. I know it is too tough to do that but as you love your childe i know who will quit it

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Well, I realize that ur stressed by ur bf leaving and ur pregnancy and all, but how is it ur baby's fault???
That poor baby did not ask to be conceived. As a teacher, I work with special needs children who have behavioral or mental problems. Wanna know what I specialize in?
Children whose moms have done drinking, smoking and drugs while they were pregnant. It just breaks my heart how these kids have been affected for their entire lives, based on poor decisions that their moms have made. Some of them have smaller head, less proportionate to their bodies, with small eyes and close together. Then, almost all of them have behavioral problems......autism, ADHD, hyperactivity, and so on and so on......
Almost all of them need extra support in school cuz academics are so hard for them. They need special tutors and they still struggle.
Basically the outcome is that these children will struggle for the rest of their lives during school. I have three children whose mom drank and two of them are brain damaged, with one of them being very severely brain damaged. I know that u said that u dont want to be judged, but.......how dare u place ur misery and unhappiness on ur child?
How will u feel if God forbid ur child is born with mental problems? If ur baby is born with fetal alcohol syndrome, social services may even take ur baby away from u.
Look, I am not here to be mean to u, u asked and u wanted answers, and I gave them to u.
The best thing to do is to never touch a cig or drink ever again.
Good luck!